MY HIDDEN SECRET!!

Holding a pen and a white paper in my hands, I sat down to spill on what all my mind desired to....

What did I? Why do I? How do I? When do I? Where do I?

Questions kept pouring off like water flowing with ease...To my surprise, for the first time, 

I felt totally blank... I couldnt write anything...

I felt like a kid who knew he was hungry but didnt know what to ask for? How to interpret his feel?

Cool breeze peeped into my room sweeping my face as if to remind me something...

Birds flew by, in search of a new shelter...,

Waves thrashed on to the shore with an urge to satisfy themselves...

"I COULD UNDERSTAND ALL THESE.....BUT I FAILED TO READ THOSE MINDS AROUND ME"...

Love was everywhere......immensely....!!

Infact I was being overly pampered....but I considered myself lucky too...I believed that I did spread love, but forgive me, I dont even deserve to be loved because I never returned them....

Hurt never, love all was what I learnt from my observation. I believed everything around me but reality was even harsher..

Happiness was what I wished to give...To heal those minds wounded by me but never done deliberately was my soul target...

Confused I sat... I could hear me within myself...

But my intention to crave my feelings  on to the white paper turned out to be in a mystery....

Pain around me like knife stabs kills me inch by inch... 

Helplessly I stood all alone with a very staunch belief that- 

"ALL WILL GET WELL, NEVER LOOSE FAITH, BELIEVE IN GOD!!" 

MY HIDDEN SECRET SHALL STAY EMBEDDED TO MY SOUL AS LONG AS I AM ALIVE.......!!!

WHAT DO I NAME YOU?

Emptiness for miles and miles...

Each step I take..You follow me everywhere,

My belief on my DIVINITY pushes you far away from me and my loved ones...

Care and caution.., I take.....Creates distance between  You and Me..

Inspite you always find a way to get back...as if My presence soothes you..

I struggle like a child fighting to back you off..

I sleep with fear but my trust wipes you away...

There are many who don't even know who you are...

I can show you those... who deserves to be followed by you....

THEN, WHY ONLY ME???

WHY ONLY MY LOVED ONES???

You create tension around me...
You enjoy me being cornered...
I WONDER, WHY ONLY ME?????
AM I THAT BAD TO BE FOLLOWED BY AN EVER ENDING PAIN WITH NO FULL STOP AT ALL????
AM I THAT BAD???

MESSENGER

MESSENGER

Heart beats pounding wildly as church bells ringing around, I woke up realizing I was all alone.

Confused....I tried to hide my fear, but in vain.

I walked ahead seeking for an answer in the totally new place.

A deafening silence engulfed me on my way...

I thrived hard to think what had happened, but it was just blackness which sprung to my mind...

Who am I? Where am I?

It was then I heard something right behind me....sounded like foot steps!!

Scared to turn around but hesitantly I glanced back..

Oh.......!!!

Speechless and stunned beyond explanation, I saw my very own splitting image staring at me.......

Chillness creeped right through my spine!!

I longed to speak but fear had grasped my throat tighter than ever..!

Regaining my lost voice, I asked- Who are you? A ghost? Am i hallucinating?

She gave me a look with the interpretation that too many questions cannot be answered at a time..

FOLLOW!!!!

It was an order to me. I did as told as if in a trance.

Few steps later, she stopped, sat there as her eyes laid glisteneing as a crystal...

Unable to bear the silence any more, I broke the icy vibe there...

ANSWER ME PLEASE!!!!!

The very next moment, she walked upto me, leaned over and whispered with icy breath-

I AM YOU AND YOU ARE ALL ME ! REMEMBER........!

My mind flashed back as quick as lightning clearing all my doubts.

" SHE WAS MY SOUL WHO CAME OVER TO TELL ME ABOUT A WHOLE NEW WORLD TO WATCH MY LOVED ONES, WIPE AWAY THEIR PAINS AND PRAY FOR THEM"

"SHE WAS A MESSENGER TO SHOW ME- LIFE EXISITS EVEN AFTER DEATH".